Friday, February 17, 2012

My need for want


Lent is only days away!  I need this Lent.  I need this time of repentance, this time of sacrifice, this time of examining my life and the choices I make each day, and this opportunity to grow closer to Christ.   I have been looking forward to Lent for weeks now, maybe months, and now just days before it finally begins I realize I have not really decided how to go about accomplishing the repentance, sacrifice, examination, and growing that I know I so desperately need.

Here are my thoughts right now--   I could give up sweets.  I could pray more.  I could end each day with a thorough examination of conscience and act of contrition.   I could hold myself to the 2 times a day of checking the computer that I already strive for (but often fail to stick to), I could fast once a week.  

Fasting is not easy for me.  I struggle not only with fasting in the traditional sense of not eating.  I LOVE food.  But also fasting from other things I like as well.  I like my comforts.  I want my life to be nice and easy.  I don’t ever really want to sacrifice but I have found, over the years, that when I bring myself to do it anyway, I am a happier person.  I have found there is great value in getting used to living with a feeling of want in my days, rather than a feeling of always being satisfied.  

God wants us to want.  

He wants us to want Him.  If we are used to always satisfying our wants immediately, we fail to recognize that deeper desire for Him that fills us all.  I remind myself often that there are more graces in sacrifice than in gratifying my every whim and desire.   

I pray this Lent will be a fruitful time.  A time of repentance, sacrifice, examination, and growing for you and for me.

6 comments:

  1. Thanks for visiting my blog. I have been looking forward to Lent, too. I can relate to a lot of what you posted here. Thanks! God bless!

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  2. Thanks for visiting my blog. I have been looking forward to Lent, too. I can relate to a lot of what you posted here. Thanks! God bless!

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  3. oops. sorry for double posting. the word verification thingy hung up on me! lol

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  4. Kari, I want to come back and read your post, but before i run out the door, send me your email so i can send you the Lent docuemtn. just leave a comment, I wont publish your email. :)

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  5. I'm back. I was nodding my head through your post. I too have this need to be satisfied, comfortable, etc. hate going hungry! I'm reading Consoling the Heart of Jesus and plan to use that thru Lent as one way to keep me focused on my purpose in life, and in trying to better give of self. God bless your Lent.

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  6. Kari,

    I always think of Lent with a feeling of dread. I know it will be a period of grief and I panic a bit as I contemplate the pain. But... I am encouraged by your words. Yes, I will make some positive plans too.

    A friend of mine once told me she always looks forward to Lent with a feeling of excitement. It is such a time of grace and we have a wonderful chance to grow closer to God.

    Praying you will have a blessed Lent!

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