Lent
is only days away! I need this Lent. I need this time of repentance, this time of sacrifice,
this time of examining my life and the choices I make each day, and this opportunity
to grow closer to Christ. I have been looking forward to Lent for weeks
now, maybe months, and now just days before it finally begins I realize I have
not really decided how to go about accomplishing the repentance, sacrifice,
examination, and growing that I know I so desperately need.
Here
are my thoughts right now-- I could
give up sweets. I could pray more. I could end each day with a thorough
examination of conscience and act of contrition. I
could hold myself to the 2 times a day of checking the computer that I already
strive for (but often fail to stick to), I could fast once a week.
Fasting
is not easy for me. I struggle not only with
fasting in the traditional sense of not eating.
I LOVE food. But also fasting
from other things I like as well. I like
my comforts. I want my life to be nice
and easy. I don’t ever really want to sacrifice but I have found, over
the years, that when I bring myself to do it anyway, I am a happier
person. I have found there is great value
in getting used to living with a feeling of want in my days, rather than a feeling
of always being satisfied.
God
wants us to want.
He
wants us to want Him. If we are used to always satisfying our wants
immediately, we fail to recognize that deeper desire for Him that fills us all. I remind myself often that there are more
graces in sacrifice than in gratifying my every whim and desire.
I
pray this Lent will be a fruitful time.
A time of repentance, sacrifice, examination, and growing for you and
for me.
Kari, I want to come back and read your post, but before i run out the door, send me your email so i can send you the Lent docuemtn. just leave a comment, I wont publish your email. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm back. I was nodding my head through your post. I too have this need to be satisfied, comfortable, etc. hate going hungry! I'm reading Consoling the Heart of Jesus and plan to use that thru Lent as one way to keep me focused on my purpose in life, and in trying to better give of self. God bless your Lent.
ReplyDeleteKari,
ReplyDeleteI always think of Lent with a feeling of dread. I know it will be a period of grief and I panic a bit as I contemplate the pain. But... I am encouraged by your words. Yes, I will make some positive plans too.
A friend of mine once told me she always looks forward to Lent with a feeling of excitement. It is such a time of grace and we have a wonderful chance to grow closer to God.
Praying you will have a blessed Lent!